--Once lost,but since found--

2007-07-14T22:06:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!
Yes,today is my 17th Birthday!
So I've grown a year older and I guess I've also grown 1 year wiser and hopefully more matured.
Well,it was kinda Ok day for me,went out for lunch and dinner with family.
Recieved many Birthday wishes from friends.Quite a few actually compared to previous years.
Even though this may not have been my most exciting Birthday,I must say this is the most smooth going one.

That's all for today...

Birthday wishes: Good results for Promos and a much more personal wish...

2007-06-30T23:11:00.000+08:00

Alrights,got sabo-ed to do this.

Please read the rules first :Each player of the game starts off by giving 6 weird things about themselves .People who get tagged needs to write in a blog of their own 6 weird things as well as state the rules clearly .In the end , you'll need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names .

1) I often day dream about being able to play soccer well.( Like Cristiano Ronaldo )

2) I feel confident only in my dreams.

3) I find MCQs harder than Structured questions.

4) I'm a sucker for love songs.

5) Angry?Only at myself.

6) I'm too much of a anything type of person.

Now that i'm done,here are the lucky 6 winners ( even though you probalby wun do it )...

1) Elvin
2) Geraldine
3) Zoe
4) Yihui
5) Wenna
6) Cedric

Damn that was hard...6 weird things are hard to find these days...

2007-06-24T19:51:00.000+08:00

Alrights,since I found some spare time,thought I do some updating.
Well,the past week has been rather "nerdy".Studied for my mid-years which starts TOMORROW!So this whole week can be called study week.
I did take a mini break on friday,went out with my family for lunch.But apart from that it's been study with Physics,Economics and Maths occupying my time.
That's about all I guess.

Last but not least,I wish my classmates the best of luck for tomorrow's Physics Mid-Years!
Good Luck!

2007-06-14T21:48:00.000+08:00

Well Well...
Time for an update...
Talking about time,time sure does pass by freaking fast when you are having fun and when you are studying!!!
The month long holiday is going to be over in just a week...
Now how fast is that?!In a blink of an eye infact!
Right after the holidays is guess what...
My mid years!!!
Well the thought is not that pleasing to the mind at all..
It's as bad as it sounds.
Ha!
and you are all I want...
Besides study, well I went for a movie...Watched Shrek 3 with my Aunt and brothers.
Played soccer the next day.
Then yesterday was back to the books.
I touched on all three subjects now.
Will be going all out on physics next week...
Hmmm...Wish me luck for my mid years!

2007-06-05T21:09:00.000+08:00

I have the Itchy Feet Syndrome.
This is a sickness most soccer addict get for not playing soccer for more then perhaps a week.
For severe cases even up to 1 day.
Mine fortunately is not that severe.
But still I will got it,hence I hope that I get to play at least once this holiday.

Hahas!Full of crap seh...As always...
HA!
But really...I want to play soccer!!!

On to other things, been studying for my mid-years the last few days,2 days actually.
Quite tedious.What to do?So must work harder la.HA!

Ok...That's about it from me today.

2007-06-01T23:22:00.000+08:00

The last 2 days have been rather slack.
Spent my Vesak Day slacking away playing Xbox and all.
Then today went to a buffet and to swim.I had a headache from the start of the day.What a great way to start a new day.Anyways, the headache subsided after the swim though,thankfully.
I must say the headache could be due to me not really sleeping soundly the past few nights.
I'm not going to say why I could not sleep.
But I would say that I hate it when history repeats itself.
It's not going to be the first time I'm going through this, and I hate it.
Life's not Life without problems.

Something went missing,
Distance far apart,
Thinking endlessly,
Drifting thoughts,
Aimless wander,
Tangled emotions,
And so the story goes............

2007-05-30T20:20:00.000+08:00

Today I had CIP ( Community Involvement Programme ).
Went to sell flags for the children's society.
After that went to paly pool.
Played pool for 2 hrs.
Then went home.
Had a really fun time today.

Why is it that it always happens to me?
It's always the same story.
Always this one-sided.
There must be something wrong with me.
Why can't it head in another direction towards a different ending?
Perhaps this is just the story of my life...

I'm so going to miss you...

2007-05-26T07:17:00.000+08:00

I really like the finale song from American Idol.
The song is titled " This is my now ".
The lyrics somehow struck me as I was listening to it...
So here's the lyrics:

There was a time I packed my dreams away

Living in a shell, hiding from myself.

There was a time when I was so afraid

I thought I’d reached the end.

Baby, that was then.

But I am made of more than my yesterdays.
This is my now,

And I am breathing in the moment.

As I look around,

I can’t believe the love I see.

My fear’s behind me,

Gone are the shadows and doubt.

That was then.This is my now.
I have a courage like never before, yeah.

I settled for less, but I’m ready for more.

Ready for more…
This is my now,

And I am breathing in the moment.

As I look around,I can’t believe the love I see

.My fear’s behind me,

Gone are the shadows and doubt.

That was then.

This is my now,

And I am breathing in the moment.

As I look around,I can’t believe the love I see.

My fear’s behind me,

Gone are the shadows and doubt.

That was then.

This is my now.

The song is also playing right now as you are reading!!

2007-05-20T16:59:00.000+08:00

Hello! Here's a longer more detailed update of my life so far.

New year, New school, New friends.
I would say I have changed a lot from last year till now.
This year I would say I've been more attentive during lessons, more hardworking than last year.
I've really learnt my lesson from last year and so I would not want a repeat of it.No way!
I'm really enjoying my time in a really fruitful way,I would never ever want this to end.

Friday was our sports carnival,whereby the entire school came together for a day of fun and games.The day started off with the individual track events,there was even a teachers race.After the races,the games started.My class took part in the frisbee,basketball and floorball.I was involved in floorball.In the end,my class were the champions of floorball!It was the first time I have won any major sporting events.Remembering secondary school where my team would get knocked out always at the semi-finals.This time we made it till the very end,Undefeated!

After the sports carnival my class went out for lunch at far east Burger King and went to play pool after that.We played pool for 3 hours plus!!The amount of fun we had was immeasureable.
I would like to have more of such class outings!

Was brought back down to earth on saturday.Time to study for my mid-years coming up real soon!Chemistry,Chinese and GP.

Okay shall stop here.

Will blog whenever I can!

A new year, Year Twenty-O-Seven.
Where every day feels like heaven!

cool-ed

2007-05-19T20:46:00.000+08:00

Hahahs!!!
Alrights!!!
I'm going to give u a update!
At long last...
Ok then...
Let's start the ball rolling...
Ok...
Life so far has been great...
Really enjoying every minute of it...
Schools great...Great friends...Funny friends...
ok...
Wld try to blog more...ha!
Till next time...
Bye!

2007-02-25T23:02:00.000+08:00

Ok...So it's been almost a month since I last blogged?
Rights...Let's just say the months flew past really fast...
ok..
So here's just a short update...
I achieved a L1R5 of 15 for my O levels.
I applied for CJC.
I'm currently waiting for the posting results.
Chinese New Year was fun!
Family and relatives coming together and cousins playing!!
Mahjong,Blackjack,XboX.
Red Packets!!!
It was really really fun!!
Looking forward to next year's!!!
Been Sick for 2 long weeks.
Missed soccer for 2 weeks.
Played soccer for an hour yesterday.

Thats abt it for me...
Finally I've recovered and have found the time to blog my 200th post.
Boring post buy hey!
I just wanted to hit the 200 mark.
hahahahs!!!!

2007-01-29T22:45:00.000+08:00

Been a long time since I last blogged...
Well it's just that theres nothing much to blog about really...
So ya...
Anyways just a little update.
My mum's been baking cookies for chinese new year.So since I'm at home while my dad and brothers are at work and in school respectively,I get to be the Cookie Critic!
You know what that means...I get to have a go at the cookies before anyone else!!
HA!!!
And may I add..THEY TASTE REALLY GOOD!!!!
Alrights apart from that well...there's nothing much...
Except that the past few days have been rather windy and such so when it comes to nightfall, where the moon hangs ever so beautifully, I would stare out my window staring at the sky,enjoying the breeze,hearing the chirping crickets and at the same time do some thinking?...ya..thinking you know something like soul searching...
Hahas...
But that's about it...

Have a great night!

And there you go quashing all of my doubts as always.
Only to make me more un-certain...

2007-01-23T22:30:00.000+08:00

Played soccer yesterday.
It was great.
Real fun.
Hahas!
Hmmm...Besides that nothing else happened yesterday.
Today...
Stayed at home today.
Got 4 blisters on my feet from yesterday's soccer.
Hahahas!
The rough texture of the sole and friction combined to give those blisters.
But I can say that I'm rather used to getting them.
Hahahas!!
Nothing much interesting happended today at home...

That's the boring post for today!
Hahas!

Goodnights!

--Why do you always occupy my mind?--
Sarah ...

2007-01-21T22:44:00.000+08:00

You can't eat, you can't sleep, you can weep
When you love someone
Feels extreme when you dream and you scream
When you love someone If you feel that strong
Can you see that one

[Chorus]
Let me be your
Someone to hold you tight
Someone to make you feel alright
Everyday and night I wish I was your someone
Someone to hold you when you're weak
Someone to make you feel complete
Everyday and night I wish I was your someone

Don't you know I will go
If you show that I can break through
It feels extreme when you dream and you scream
When you love someone
If you feel that strong
Can you see you're the one

[Chorus]

And I hold you tight
Still on my mind
I can't stand to live without you
And I can't forget you where ever you are
Still on my mind

[Chorus]

Someone to hold you tight
Someone to make you feel alright
Everday and night I wish I was your someone...

I really really wish that I can be your Someone...
I really do...
Will you let me be your someone?

2007-01-17T22:50:00.000+08:00

Love, I see forever in your eyes
I can see heaven in your smile
And when I hold you close
I don't want to let go
Because deep in my soul I know girl

You are the only light I see
Your love means everything to me
I know that we will never part
Cause you'll always be near, here in my heart

If the sun should refuse to rise
And the moon doesn't hang in the night
The tides won't change, seasons rearrange
When the world is through
I will still love you
(oh yeah still love you baby)

Girl, you're like an angel from above
Sent here to shower me with your love
Hold me beneath your wings
Tell me all of those things
All the hopes and the dreams we can share

Cause I'll be your shelter from the storm
I'll be the fire that keeps you warm
I'll be your light in the dark
Cause you'll always be here in my heart

If the sun should refuse to rise
And the moon doesn't hang in the night
The tides won't change, seasons rearrange
When the world is through
I will still love you.

If anything could last forever
It's what I feel for you (That's what I feel for you)
Oh baby, you've touched my heart in ways
That words could never say
That's why I'll always love you

Yes I will love you still baby
I will still love you
Girl believe your all I need
I will still love you.

98 degrees's Still.

--Will you fall for me?--

Cause I've fallen for you...

2007-01-16T22:21:00.000+08:00

FINALLY!!!
AT long last I managed to play soccer!!!
It did not really rain today...Just that slight drizzle which only lasted no more than 5 mins!!!
Yups...There was the sun emitting it's beautiful UV-rays!
Guess wad!!
I got a very red face as a result of playing under the hot sun.
How cool is that?!!!
It's like a Tomato FACE!!
HAHAHAS!!!
Well the skin will probably peel off in a few days time.
Alrights...
Anyways today soccer was fun...Real fun...
I hope I can play it more often.
Yea...
I also hope to at least start some studying or reading up at least for JC.
yea!
hahas!
hmmm...
That's about it for today...
OH YA!!!
I heard that Chemistry is a must take subject in JC as most of the NUS course require Chem?
Is it true??
Hahas...

Anyways...That's all...

Goodnight and Enjoy the SUN!!!

Through my eyes,
I have seen the world start spinning like a ball.
Stars light up and then fall for you.
So then what's a man like me supposed to do?
If I gave you the moon would you notice,
That I'm right beside you?

Well now a thousand days and thousand nights are not enough.
Cause I can't hold back the way I feel about my love.
Won't let it go, won't let it go.

Clay Aiken's A Thousand Days.

2007-01-12T23:03:00.000+08:00

Ok..there's nothing much to blog about.
So I'm just here to share part of Avril Lavigne's new song...
The lyrics I mean...

Hear me when I say when I say I believe
Nothing's gonna change, nothing's gonna change destiny
Whatever's meant to be will work out perfectly.

It seem to strike me this portion of the song.
hahas!

Enjoy the rainy night!

2007-01-11T17:51:00.000+08:00

Rain Rain go away,
Nicholas here wants to go and play!
Rain no more.
Cause Nicholas is sick of it all.
Rain Rain go away,
Please stop raining all day.
Rain no more,
Cause Nicholas just wants to go and kick a ball.

Hahas...wad a stupid thing from me...
hahas!!
Anyways...just now I posted a longer version of this...however I accidently deleted it..I also lazy to re-type all.
So...
I shall summarise.
ok...
Today woke up raining.
Went to play soccer.
Play for a combine time of 1 hr.
Then rain on-off.
Rain we take shelter.
Rain stop we play.
Wasted my time.
But better than staying at home.
Ok...thats about my day.

Enjoy the rest of the day!!!

2007-01-08T22:33:00.000+08:00

Alrights...
Here I am to blog my day...
Ok...lets start from the time I woke up.
Hmm...ok..so woke up...had breakfast..and then it's slacking all the way...
played games,read a book...finished it if i might add...hmmm...watched tv...
then..hmmm...thats about it...the weather was hot...nearly melted into a pool of water...
no kidding...
that was how hot it was...
My brain was also going to melt.
hahas..
hmmm...wad else do i have to blog abt?
hmmm...
Let me think...
I have not held a pen for 3 months...
How cool is that?
I can't wait to hold a pen and write again...
The joy of writing....
hahas!

ok..anyways..ran out of ideas to type...so...
NIGHTS!!!

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Oh, once in your life you find someone
Who will turn your world around
Pick you up when your feeling down
Now nothing could change what you mean to me
There's a lot that I could say
But just hold me now
Cause our love will light the way...

Dj Sammy's Heaven.

I'm weak, it's true
I'm just scared to know the ending
Do you see me too?
Do you even know you met me?

Ryan Cabrera's True

I like to end my every post with a phrase or paragraph that made an impression on me...
So they are random and may not mean anything.
ya.

2007-01-07T15:56:00.000+08:00

Alrights.So firstly I just want to say that I'm sorry about the last few posts.
Well let's just say that I was very disappointed about not getting into a JC.
Ya...So I kinda got a little emotional?...whatever you call it.
Ya.
Anyways...I gotten over it and ya...I know what I can do to prepare myself for JC when I do get into it after getting my Os results.
I'm gonna do self study?...Ya self study.
So that I won't be lagging too far behind the rest when I enter JC.
Yups...hahas!
For now though,
Enjoy your day!
hahas!

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I'm sorry about the last few posts.
Take it as I did not say anything at all if you want to.
But that does not mean that what I said is not what I feel.
It is indeed how I felt.
Ignore it.

2007-01-04T23:07:00.000+08:00

JC this JC that...Bla Bla Bla.
I can't take it anymore.
I freaking want to go to JC!!!
I want to go to school!
Hearing my friends say this and that about JC so far,I freaking want to go!!
After hearing them I feel like bloody crying la!
Why was I so stupid and playful in secondary school??!!!!
WHY WHY WHY!!!
I fucking regret what I chose to do!
I should have studied right from the start and not wake up with only 6 months left!
WHY WHY WHY!!!
ARGH!
Every night before I sleep,I'd be thinking how nice would it be if I were going to school now instead of being at home.Everynight,I'll be close to tears.For I can't be with my friends.There they are experiencing JC life while I?Spend lonely times at home!
My heart is torn into pieces knowing that I could have been in a JC right now yet I did not even give myself a chance!
I regretted my freaking actions!
Damn!
I want to turn back the freaking clock!
Can I do that?
I've learned my lesson the damn hard way.
The freaking hard way.
I regret ok!!I regret!!!
Someone throw me a life line please!
Haiz...
I bow my head in shame...in shame...in shame...

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To my friends,I hope you guys would be so kind as to lend me your notes that you'll receive from ur lessons in JC.
I don't want to lag too far behind when/if I make it to a JC.
Thanks.

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When you read what I'm going to say here,I hope you know that it is meant for you.
It's meant for you.
Do you know that everytime I talk to you there would be this feeling from deep within my gut?
An sms from you is able to make me smile the whole day.
I'm very happy that you are talking to me.
But I'm wondering,once you read this and my previous posts,would we still talk like now?
Do you know that I very much like you?
Did you know that when you went for your holiday trip,the days that I was unable to talk to you,the 2 days.Well they felt pretty empty.It was as though something was missing.
That missing piece was you.
Do you know that every time I wish you goodnight and sweet dreams I actually mean it?
Did you know that every time you'd have to go offline,I get this she bu de feeling?
Do you know that I just want to make you smile and feel happy?

I guess to all that questions,your answer would be that you don't know.
Well I'm telling you now...This is how I really feel.
I'm hoping that someday you'd feel the same way too.

*Hoping* *Fingers-crossed*

2007-01-03T22:26:00.000+08:00

If I'm not in love with you,
What is this I'm going through, tonight,
And if my heart is lying then,
What should I believe in,
Why do I go crazy,
Every time I think about you baby,
Why else do I want you like I do,
If I'm not in love with you...

Extract from Faith Hill's If I'm not in love.

The lyrics sums up the way I'm feeling right this very moment.
Every night,before I go to sleep,I'll look out my window wishing and hoping that you'll like me too.
As I lay in bed,I would be thinking,how nice it would be if I knew how you feel for me.
Each night I write this,I'm hoping that you'll see it.
But each time,you don't seem to see it.
I'm hoping that I'd be able to win your heart and that you'll like me too.
You always seem to say and do things that makes me smile.
I do wish to know how you feel.
I hope you read this.

2007-01-02T22:08:00.000+08:00

School starts tomorrow.
Yet I can't go to school.
No,I'm not sick.
It's just that I'm waiting for my O levels results.
My prelim results were not good enough for admittance for a JC.
So,I guess I'll be at home.
It kinda feels weird that I'm not going to school for another month or so.
Very weird.
Anyways I got to live with it.
I can't wait to get back to school,the JC of my choice and start hitting the books.
Ya.
Hahas...That's me saying it alright.Ha!

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I have got no idea if you have seen my 2nd wish.
But I'm thinking you did not as you do not seem to have seen it.
School's starting.You would be having fun in your JC,meeting new friends.
I wonder if we would still be talking to each other like now a few months or even weeks down the road.
I'm hoping that we still would.
I don't know about you but I sure know that I would definately miss talking to you.
I hope you don't forget me and put me in that distant memory of yours,because I sure won't forget you.
I would like you to know that I still like you.
I'll continue waiting for the day when you open my heart,freeing the words and thoughts that I've been keeping ever since I felt something for you.
The day may come 5,10,15 years from now even but I'll still be waiting.
I know talk is cheap,but right now this is how I really feel.
I can't predict the future.All I can say is that this is how I really feel.
Right now,all I want to say is that," I really really really like you."

2006-12-31T21:55:00.000+08:00

When the hand strikes 12 tonight,it would mark the start of a new year.
The year 2007.
Looking back on the year 2006,I would say they've been a rather eventful year.
The start of the year 2006 was like the previous years.
I looked forward to the same stuff I'd been looking forward to.
The coming to school early,going to class early and chatting up with friends and not forgetting to COPY homework.I'm probably going to miss this routine in the coming year.
However,as the year went on and the O levels approaching,the teachers also got busier preparing us for the all important Os.
They hit the ground running as soon as the new school term had started.
However,I did not take heed.I was still slacking up till the mid-years.Where after attaining a score of 40,I was shook awake.But by then I would say that it was too late to catch up for the prelims.
Thus I studied for the prelims with the Os in sight.
That was ultimate aim.
For the prelims I managed a score of 25.It was not good enough for admittance to a JC.
However,I feel that I took the Os in a much better state than the prelims.
So hopefully I did well for it.I really regretted not hit the ground running and see the importance of the Os earlier.
If only I had known,I definately would not make the same mistake.
I'm not going to make the same mistakes twice.

Apart from studies,I will also be missing the after school soccer almost everyday with my friends.
Again the after school soccer started in Secondary 1.We would play after school almost everyday.
This was the trend that continued throughout my Secondary school life.Even though we got seperated in Secondary 3,we still managed to play together.
I will definately be missing playing soccer together.
I would also miss chatting with my friends and making fun of each other.
The laughter and all.

From Secondary 1 to Secondary 4,I feel that I've matured though it is not that much,but I dare say I've matured a little.The friends that I have is probably the reason why.Although I'm still like a young kid playing a fool all the time.

For all I've said so far,
I've 2 wishes for the following year,2007.
(These wishes will be brought forward to the next year if it is not realised.)

1st: To have the strength and determination to give my all in my studies.

Well the second does not have anything to do with studies.

2nd: To know how you feel about me.

I don't know how you seeing my 2nd wish would affect you or change the friendship we have now but I want to let you know that I still like you.The past few days has made that feeling stonger.
As the song on my blog,It ends tonight.
I'm telling you how I feel tonight.

These are my two wishes for the year 2007.

My resolutions?
I only have 1.
To study harder and give my best in what ever things I do.

Thats all from me for the year 2006.
Here's Wishing Everyone a Happy New Year and a Wonderful year 2007 ahead!

2006-12-30T00:33:00.000+08:00

Today,Yesterday or rather was our class chalet.
And nope I did not stay.
Yups.
So we arrived there at abt 2.30.But then we cld not check in as we needed an person to be over 18 to check in for us.
so Waited to abt 5 for my frens dad to help us check in.Thanks!
ok..then we started the fire for the bbq.
I'm pretty sure I got lots of smoke in my lungs and stuff now.
Hahas!
Then after the bbq we went for a swim.
Swam for abt 30 mins then found out that my frens were playing pool!
So I joined them.
Yea...played a 2 on 2 game.
ya.
Then at about 10.30 my father came to fetch me home...yups..
Well tmr got another bbq.
yea.
I had fun today.Yup.

Alrights.
Nights!

Should I tell or Should I not?

2006-12-28T23:09:00.000+08:00

Alrights...So I've not been blogging for the past few days...
Well..Let's just say that this christmas for me was quieter than the previous years...
Yups..
But still the same happy feeling though.
It's really a day where it just makes you smile.
You'd hear the all too familiar Christmas songs.
You'd get your usual delicious food.Log Cakes,Turkey,Shepard's Pie,etc.
What more can you want?
Drooling just thinking of it.
hahas.
yea.

Alrights...
So on to today.
Well went to Great World City to shop with my parents.
Yea.
Then Sarah smsed me asking me go watch Death Note 2,
But I was out with my parents.
So could not go.
Sorry!
Another time perhaps.
Alrights...next my brother's shoe got stolen when he was at his friends house.
ha!
So funny la!
the shoe and socks was wet somemore!Yet there are still some people stealing it.
ha!
How cool is that!

To the stealer: Well, Merry Christmas to you too.Hope you take good care of that shoe.God Bless!

Alrights..that should be all.

Tmr is a class chalet.
But I'm not gonna stay over...yea...Coming back home to my comfy bed!
ha!

The cooling breeze brushing against my face.
Tell me how you feel will you?

2006-12-25T22:17:00.000+08:00

Merry Christmas,Happy Holiday by N'sync.

Merry Christmas
Happy Holidays
Merry Christmas
Merry Christmas
Merry Christmas
Happy Holidays

Oh yeah!
We've been waiting all year for this night
When the snow is glistening on the trees outside
All the stockings are hung by the fire side
Waiting for Santa to arrive
And all the love will show
Cuz everybody knows its Christmas time
And all the kids will see
The gifts under the tree
It's the best time of year for the family

Chorus:
It's a wonderful feeling
Feel the love in the room from the floor to the ceiling
It's that time of year
Christmas time is here and
With the blessings from above
God sends you His love and
Everything's OK
Merry Christmas
Happy Holidays
Merry Christmas
Merry Christmas
Happy Holidays

Oh yeah
Oh
Bells are ringing
It's time to scream and shout (Scream and shout)
And everybody's playin' cuz schools out
Celebrating the special times we share
Happiness cuz love is in the air
And all the love will show
Cuz everybody knows its Christmas time
And all the kids will see (Will see)
The gifts under the tree (The tree)
It's the best time of the year for the family

Chorus
Merry Christmas
Merry Christmas
Happy Holidays
Oooo
Merry Christmas
Merry Christmas
Happy Holidays

No matter what your holiday
It's a time to celebrate
Put your worries aside (Worries aside)
And open up your mind (Open up your mind)
You'll see the world right by your side (Right by your side)
It's Christmas time
Merry Christmas
Merry Christmas
Merry Christmas
Happy Holidays
(X2)

Chorus
Merry Christmas
Merry Christmas
Merry Christmas
Happy Holidays
(X3)

Here's the lyrics to the song on my blog.
Merry Christmas everybody!

One day,I will give you the best Christmas ever...
I will one day...If given the chance...

2006-12-24T21:53:00.000+08:00

Merry Christmas everybody!!
hahas!
It's finally here!

So here's wishing all my friends and the entire world a MERRY CHRISTMAS!

Have a wonderful night!!

I still like you...

2006-12-22T22:37:00.000+08:00

Alrigths...So today I went to play soccer somewhere near Toa payoh central.yups...quite fun...really fun in fact.
hahas!
ok..then hmmm..played till about 3+...ya.then after that went to my friends house.yea..
then went back at abt 5.30...yea..
then here i'm back at home.
and guess wad?
I have a freaking headache.
I dunno y it seems i keep getting headache..muz be the lack of sleep..
Sleep at 2 wake up at 8+..hahas...I know Im weak..but I'm a light sleeper.So i'm easily woken up by sound and stuff.
hahas!
anyways.
I think I better scoot off to bed.
hahas.

Hmmm...I'm feeling a little hungry.
Hmm...let's hope I dream of food.

hahas..
Nights!

Santa Claus is coming to town!!!
BE GOOD!

2006-12-21T23:12:00.000+08:00

If I could lived life over again,I would very much like to change the way I lived it during sec 1.
When I look back now,that year was a really bad one for me.If only I could have seen it the way I see it now.It feels so dumb and plain stupid the way I acted and stuff.
Ya.
So if I could relive it well then I wanna change that year.

Back to the present.
Well,I'm resigned to let nature take it's course now.
Let nature's course guide me.
After all what's meant to be will be.

Anyways,Christmas is just round the corner!
Really looking forward to it.
Hahas.

All I want for Christmas is......

2006-12-20T23:10:00.000+08:00

Alrights...I shall blog...
Well...let's see...ok...the last I blogged was on the 12th...means more than 1 week ago...
Ok..well the week was hectic?hahas...
Ya...went shopping with my parents quite alot...almost everyday...ya...
Then recently eh..ytd..went to watch a movie The Holiday...watched from the second row..nice la..my neck started to hurt and I got a headache halfway into the movie...hahas!
Anyways..after the movie my family was at plaza sing...so I joined them after the movie..
yups..
then today NEVER RAIN!!!
Got la...but only for awhile...FINALLY!!!
The weather was really nice for soccer...
So played till 7.30..then went to serangoon central mac with friends..then we chatted as we ate...damn funny la..hahas!
then came back home...then here...then saw tagboard wenna ask me update..then later sarah also ask me update...hahs!
so update la...
I want to play soccer again before the first months start!!!
Later no time to play liao...
hahahas...
that shud be all la huh...
Cannot remember any other intersting stuff to say...yups!
Oh ya!!!I also learnt that alot is 2 words!It's a lot!Not alot!ha!
kkkkkkk....too much rubbish!
Till next time...

Everything has it's own time.
Take it easy,don't over stress oneself.
Life's meant to be enjoyed.
So,ENJOY it!

2006-12-12T00:37:00.000+08:00

Alrights..My day today is pretty much the same as all the other days...Boring!
Hahas...Yups.How cool is that>?
Not very cool I tell you.

So ya.Nothing much.

Nights!

I've got many things that I want to tell you.
But I don't think I will say it at this moment.
Yea.It will stay sealed up and locked in my heart.
Cause even if I say it,it'll probably never mean anything to you right now.
Perhaps what it would mean is an even awkward friendship than it already is.
Hopefully one day,you'd unlock my heart and hear me speak from my heart when the words tell it's meanings.
Till then,it will stay locked in my heart waiting for you to open it.

2006-12-09T22:56:00.000+08:00

Good Charlotte "Say Anything"

Here I am on

The phone again, and

Awkward silence is

On the other end

I used to know the sound

Of a smile in your voice

But right now (right now)

All I feel (All I feel)

Is the pain of the fighting

Starting up again

All the things we talk about

You know they stay on my mind

On my mind

All the things we laugh about

They'll bring us through it every time

After time after time

Don't say a wordI know you feel the same

Just give me a sign

Say anything, say anything

Please don't walk away

I know you wanna stay

Just give me a sign

Say anything, say anything

Some say thatTime changes

Best friends canBecome strangers

But I don't want that

No, not for you

If you just stay with me, we can make it through

So Here we are again

The same old argument

And now I'm wonderin'If things'll ever change, yeah

When will you laugh again?

Laugh like you did back when

We'd make noise til 3 AM and the neighbors would complain

All the things we talk about

You know they stay on my mind

On my mind

All the things we laugh about

They'll bring us through it every time

After time after time

Don't say a wordI know you feel the same

Just give me a sign

Say anything, say anything

Please don't walk away

I know you wanna stay

Just give me a sign

Say anything, say anything

I'm fallin'

I'm fallin' down

I'm fallin'

I'm fallin' down

Down

Don't say a word

I know you feel the same

Just give me a sign

Say anything, say anything

Please don't walk away

I know you wanna stay

If you'll just give me a sign

Say anything, say anything

Don't say a word (Please don't leave)I know you feel the same

Just give me a sign

Say anything, say anything

Please don't walk away (Please don't leave)

I know you wanna stay

Just give me a sign

Say anything, say anything...

Well,the night is still young.

2006-12-08T21:35:00.000+08:00

What a BORING day!!
But today I did not watch Pokemon and Power Rangers.
Hahas.I was sleeping actually.Yups.
Damn sian la.Seriously.
I wish I can just go out and play soccer!
But then it rains everytime we play soccer.
Don't know is lucky or unlucky.
Hahas!
Ya...Nothing really nice to blog about today.
So I guess I'll stop here.

Ha!
Actually up till now I still don't really know how you feel.You've not said anything about how You feel.All you've said is that I should not wait.But I'm going to wait.
Right now all I want to know is how you feel.Thats all...
The night has just begun,enjoy the cool breeze!

2006-12-08T01:15:00.000+08:00

My day was about the same as yesterday!
Yups,almost identical.
The only difference was that I was talking to _ almost the whole of today.
That really made my day all the better.
I really enjoyed talking to you.
You made a potentially boring day become one that was rather fun-filled.
Receiving your sms really put a smile across my face.It never fails to do so.
Having chatted the previous night and to carry on the next day was nice.
Though you were busy and took awhile to reply,I did not mind waiting at all.
You may take 1 minute to reply or 5 hrs to reply,but that reply sure makes me smile all the same.
It really makes me happy.
Yea.
If only we can just have a chat everyday,be it for 5 mins or 5 hours,it will definately make my day.
Talking to you really makes me feel happy.
But I know it is just me feeling this way.So I don't really expect it to happen everyday.
But if I could,I would wish that we would be chatting everyday.

Every sms that you send me,every word that you type on MSN adds to my happiness and a wider smile.

I don't think you feel the same but hey,that's what I really feel...

I hope this does not put you off or anything.

A new day has just begun,let's look forward to it!

2006-12-06T20:20:00.000+08:00

So this is an earlier than usual post from me...hahas!
It is damn freaking BORING!!!
I have almost nothing entertaining to look forward to as the seconds tick by.
Though I'm definately looking forward to some.
But it is like a mere handful.
hahas!
Today I stayed at home collecting dust.
It was freaking boring.
I was so bored that I watched Pokemon and Power Rangers!!!
Although I must say that Power Rangers is a pretty cool show.
Ha!
Usually when I'm bored with nothing to do,my brain would wonder and I would start thinking about anything that comes to my mind.
From soccer to even studies!!
But on this day,nothing much came to my head.
I wanted to sms _ a few times but not wanting to disturb and all,I decided not to.
I tried kicking my soccer ball around the house.
But my ball is getting softer and softer with days gone by.
And I'm too lazy to find the freaking pump.
So I eventually got sick of the soft ball.
Ha!
I eventually settled to entertaining my little bro while watching Power Rangers!!!
I got "whacked up" pretty bad!!
Ha!

That's about it for my boring day.

hahas!

The nights young,do enjoy!!!

2006-12-05T23:49:00.000+08:00

Booya!
Today was a rainy day.
How nice...Having not rained for 2 days...
And guess what!!
I was playing soccer!!
Hahaas...Y does it always rain when I play soccer???
Talk about being lucky!
hahas.
Hmmm..besides that...nothing much happen...
Though I've got quite a few things on my mind.
hahas...

Last night I had the weirdest dream...hahas!
But it was not one that I probably want to happen in the future.It was not one that I liked.
Won't say what it is here.ha!
Let's just say it has something to do with Adidas.

Thats the only hint I'm giving.
Hint: Adidas.

Goodnight!

2006-12-01T22:59:00.000+08:00

Booya!
Alrights...So today went to vivo for the first time...
Then watched Deck the Halls..the 12.10 show...We like got there at 11.40...then we like stand by the ticket counter and like discuss wad we wanted to watch..then finally decided on deck the halls at 12.05...how cool is that...
And we like stll got tickets la...
The cinema was like empty man...So cool...ha!
And we thought we wld not be getting that tickets.
hahas!
The show I must say is very funny..but not the funniest I've seen...hahas!
Then got one part of the show they sang the song Oh,Holy Night...A Xmas song...hahas!
Then when I heard it I like nearly tear-ed sia...I also dunno why la...Hearing that song always seem to make me feel like crying...I mean it's a happy song not a sad one...hahas..
So I'm not sure y I feel this way...ha!
then next went to play soccer...hahas..all the way till 7.15...yea...and i did not feel tired at all..ha!
How cool...
I can't wait for the next outing of this kind...Damn shoik!!!!

Thats all folks...

If tomorrow never comes,
Will she know how much I loved he,
rDid I try in every way to show her every day,
That she's my only one,
And if my time on earth were through,
And she must face this world without me,
Is the love I gave her in the past,
Gonna be enough to last...

If tomorrow never comes,
So tell that someone that you love,
Just what you're thinking ofIf tomorrow never comes...

( If tomorrow never comes by Ronan Keating)*

2006-11-29T22:37:00.000+08:00

Alrights...this really sucks...
You know something,I really hope that the brain would enable us to like delete wad ever bad memories or bad stuffs in our head...
Or wad ever we one to delete.so that we would have no memories of wad happened...
yea...
If only my brain could do it...if only...

The more I try to not think about you,the more I will.
Becuz when I try not to,I'll say to myself " Do not think of _".
Then obviously I would be thinking of you.
I don't know why but you're damn damn difficult to forget.
I've never believed that I would like feel down and stuff.
But now,I'm experiencing it.
How cool is that.
In my 16 years of life it's probably the first time that I will feel this way.
I don't like this feelings.
I usually get it when I'm in my room or in a quiet moment.
It comes anytime around those times.
How cool is that?
hahas!
Well,looks like this lamo ass will carry on a rather futile wait.
But what the heck,I don't give a damn!
Sorry for the language.*

Oh, I know I could say we’re through,
And tell myself I’m over you,
But even if I made a vow,
A promise not to miss you,
Now and try to hide the truth inside,
I fail cause,
I just can’t live a lie...

( From "I just can't live a lie" by Carrie Underwood )
This is close to what I'm feeling right now.

2006-11-27T02:26:00.000+08:00

Alrights so as you can tell,it's like 2.20 in the morning..hahas..
Yups...just finished watching the man utd and chelsea match at cx'x house.
hahas...cool rights...
And to be back home at like 2 man...now thats a first...ha!
First thanks cx for inviting and tempting me.
Second thanks to elvin's parents for fetching me home,sorry about the few mis-directions.
hahas...
Yea...Then had a go with playing pool today...alrights...i learned smth new..okok..i'm a noob..ha!
next off went to bowl...hahas...yea...
then after that off to cx's place.ha!
the rest is what u can now call history...hahas..
Ok..so this is about all i did for today...It's getting earlier so thus I guess I better go to bed..ha!playing soccer tmr.well..most prob la...

kk..off to bed..nights!!

Come to think of it,I think I'm the selfish one.
I mean you have feelings too right.
By hoping and by telling you that I'll wait every single day,
I feel it's rather umfair for me to do so.
But I can't help myself.
It's beyond my control.
I'm sorry for really making you feel awkward and stuff.
I'm sorry.
I guess maybe distancing yourself perhaps it would be the best solution to this.
Maybe after awhile hopefully for you my feelings go away.
The day you dun see anymore of this kind of msges probably means that the feelings are gone.
But at this very moment I dun see it happening very soon.
I'm sorry,
But this is really really beyond my control.
Sorry!

2006-11-25T23:40:00.000+08:00

You bad?
You evil?
You selfish?
I think not.
You can go ahead and say all the bad things about yourself.
But on this occasion,I'm not giving up.
Nothing is gonna make me change my heart.
I'm going to follow my heart and wait.
I'll wait for as long as it takes.
There's this feeling inside of me that I can't describe.
Perhaps you'll tell me there's no point waiting.
But there's that feeling which pushes me to keep on waiting.
You've given me the drive to carry on waiting for you.
I'll wait as long as you live,as long as my heart beats.
I believe my heart,you're like none other.
You're just that special.That special....

Distant yourself away from me if you want,
But you can't prevent me from thinking about you and waiting for you.
I'm sorry,I just can't stop myself from doing that.

2006-11-25T21:45:00.000+08:00

Silent cries,
Tears that never dries.
Smiles diffuses away day by day,
Watching you drift further and further away.
On my window the pitter-patter of rain,
In my heart an excruciating pain.
A chance is all I ask,
I'll love you from dusk till dawn and dawn till dusk.
Give it a go,For you'll never know.
Don't put me into a trance,
Just give me that one chance...

From the very bottom of my heart...
For that chance,I'll wait...I'llwait...

2006-11-24T20:31:00.000+08:00

When you told me your answer,
It feelings I felt were entirely different from the past ones.
I dunno what this feeling is but I've definately never ever experienced it before.
I would say this is an entirely new feeling for me.
I'm unable to describe it in words.
But really it's really different.Very different.
I wonder what is this feeling myself.
Until it goes away,looks like I'll continue liking you I guess.
Hmmm.Just what is this feeling???!!!
I'm sorry to put you through all this...

hmmm.....

2006-11-23T17:51:00.000+08:00

You know,I've been thinking...Yups...Thinking...
Ya...
I feel that I'm lacking in confidence and courage,guts whatever you call it...
Everything I do I'm afraid to get it wrong.I'm afraid of making mistakes.
I feel I'm never as good as anybody...To me I'm basically the worst guy in the world...
I look at some of my friends and would sometimes wish that I could be like them...Full of poise and confidence...
I don't seem to get anything right...None at all...
I'm even afraid to ask for something I want...Often thinking twice,trice...And finally never even say my piece...
I just have no courage in opening my mouth and ask...
Even when I'm playing soccer...I'm afraid to get past the person in front of me for fear of losing the ball...
I lack the guts...
If I get a chance to shoot...I would probably elect to pass to my teammates rather than have a go myself...
I may be noisy and irritating the shit out of my friends with my nonsense when we go out together or something...But in truth I'm scared to even hold a decent convo with my teachers!!
I'm such a loser rights??
hahas...
Well thats me I guess...

hahas...enuff self-pity...
On to other better stuff...

Well my brother got back his PSLE results today and I'm proud to say that he beat me!!!Thrash me!
He had 231 while I had 222...hahas...Big difference I know...hahas..
I feel so happy for him...Really happy...He had worked hard for it..trust me...He deserves it...
To those who might think that I'm sore at losing out to him...well...you've got it all wrong...Cause I'm very close to my family if anyone in the family does well I feel happy...
I dun care if they beat me or freaking thrash me or even if they outsmarted me...I'm happy for them...
Kudos to my bro...
I'm sure he'll go on and even beat my O level score whatever my score shall be...
I'm sure he'll better it...hahas!
I have confidence in him...ha!

He's my brother and I'm proud to be his!!!

Thats all for today ppl!ha!

Don't forget to remember me,
When the storm blows your way,
I wanna be the earth that holds you...

Taken from Carrie Underwood's "Don't forget to remember me and Inside you heaven"

2006-11-22T22:14:00.000+08:00

Well my day was alright I guess...!!Just have this sun burn face and shoulders...
hahas...Cuz ytd played soccer from 11 to 5.30 like that...hahas...then the sun was damn hot also..so ya...hahas...
now it's like tomato red...like I wear make up like that...hahas..
yea...and it's hurting...hahas..yups..
hahas..oh wells...for soccer anything...hahas!
hmmm...
I still needa find players to form the team..and hopefully book everything before some of me players go overseas...hahas!!

Thats about it I guess!!

I'm glad I told you...
Although I won't know how you feel,I'm just happy that even after reading it you were still talking to me...hahas!

2006-11-22T05:55:00.000+08:00

I know it's impossible but it was real tough trying to keep it in...
I do not know how ur're gonna react to this...

I'd had a long thought about this before expressing it...
I have no regrets at all...except that our friendship may not be what it used to be...
But it was a risk I was willing to take...

I'm sorry that you had to find out this way but I had no idea how else to do it or I'd lack the guts...

I'm sorry, Sarah...

2006-11-19T22:21:00.000+08:00

I'm starting to hate the holidays...
Yes,it is a time where I gett o relax and enjoy what I like doing...
But it is also a time whereby I'm given plenty of time to think...
To some maybe thinking may not be such a bad thing...
But...
For me the more I think,the more confuse I get...
I'm stuck in between...
It's like I wanna get to know more about you.
It's like everytime I come online I start looking to see if you are online.
It's like I would try to think of something to talk to you,but I never seem to find the right thing.
It's like when I receive a sms I would be hoping it's from you.
It's like I would be thinking the whole day about what you think about me.

I really don't know what I'm feeling.
I'm getting confused as to what to do,as to what I feel.
All I know is that I'm thinking about excuses to just talk to you half the time.

I know you don't feel the same way and that I should not be writing this but...I needed to get it off.

Incase you're wondering,you are rzqzg.

I know you'll be reading this.
I don't know how am I going to talk to you after you read this.
I really don't.....

Have a great night.

2006-11-19T01:15:00.000+08:00

Booya.
Hahas...alrights...spent my day playing me Xbox...yea...
I just can't wait to play soccer again man...
But I think I may have over strain my muscle...
Damn dumb la...My left thigh is a bit the sore...yea...but It shud be alright...yea...
Hahas...
really nth much to blog sia...
As in thats all I did wad...How to blog long?
Hahas...

Across each other we sat,
I stared across the room.
If only I could read your mind...If only...If only...
Do I sometimes occupy that special place in your heart and mind?

2006-11-17T23:01:00.000+08:00

Booya!
alrights...It's over!!!
AT long last..ahhas..
and yups...At long last I kicked a soccer ball!!!!
Feels damn good man...but ar...i kena blisters...hahas..
and i pant easily...very long never play liao..ahhas...yea...
ok...hist was bad..real bad...wad i studied nth came out...shoik rights...ya...thats wad i thought...
Damn style la...
hahas...Should I speak my mind and tell you???
Alrights...blog till here...

Bye ppl...
Nights!!!

2006-11-16T20:26:00.000+08:00

Booya!!!
Alright then...I'm down to my last paper...History..Tmr is the end date for Os for me at least...hahas...
yea...Today well Amaths...hmmm..I think I did alright...yea...Chem...erm...not that confident...hahas..
yea...I just can't wait till tmr man...the agony of a long wait..well..not that long if I study..time seems to fly when ur're really studying..yea...

Anyways...I'm not depressed anymore...yea..gotten over it..ahhas...i mean wads the use of being depressed anyways...Life is simply too too short...so yea...I'm used to being somewhat happy anyways...so hahahas...Anyways..thnks to those who comforted me??yea...u know who u are right>?
Dun have to name names right?...yea...All girls i think...yea...now then i realised that...hahas...
cool...
ha!!!

And Finally...Good luck to my class historians...
Yea...Hope I'll end the exams on a better goodder note ha!!!

Going to study now...

Have Fun ppl!!!(I'm not refering to only the geog ppl)

There is none like You,
No one else can touch my heart like You do...

2006-11-15T20:14:00.000+08:00

Booya!!!
Ok...so I took a nap today...and yups...feeling rather hyper now...damn...I shud not have taken that nap...hahas...Anyways I've been thinking...yea...some crap...hahahas...
Erm...I've been thinking...If we don't say how we feel,don't ask wad we want that kind of stuff right...we sure will not be able to get it right?
So until we say wad we want we won't get it...rights...
so it's kinda like if we dun ask then we will never know the ans to the qns we so desprately wanna ask right?hahas...and if we do not say how we feel then the ppl ard us will never know our feelings rights?
Yea...
So why dun we like just say the things out from the heart just like that>?
For me it's becuz I have a very low self esteem I guess...so thats why I seldom show or tell how I'm feeling be it happy or sad or angry...
yea..and I'll never have the guts to say wad I really want...I have no idea y...
Anyways...this O levels I think brings out the best and worst in ppl...
Take me for example...I seldom get freaking pissed or angry but during the course of the 2 week Os,I've like gotten angry or pissed more than I have ever before add up together...I mean when I do my maths if I cannot get it,I will feel damn frustrated...or when the formula is like written down and yet I subst in the wrong value and stuff..well...this has kinda been the case for me during this Os...yea..I'm not saying I did badly or anything or wad but this Os really make me see that I do have that little temper in me I never knew I had before...yea...
But then again I also think the Os did bring some good out in me...To a certain extent I guess...
Well...first of all I found out that I cld actually put my heart and soul into wad I'm studying if I wanted to...It also made me realise that for the past few exams I did not study...For this Os though I dare say that I did study and I am doing my best to get the best results...
Yea...
Ok...I've got like an Amaths paper 2,Chem and hist paper left...It will all be finished on friday and I will be free...Ok...yea...But then again I'm also like kinda worried for my results although I did my best,I'm afraid that my best was given too late...yea...

ok enuff of that crap...

yea..

erm...ya..tmr's Amaths paper 2 and Chemistry..yups...so here's wishing my class the Best of Luck tmr...
Yea...Hope I can do well and pass well tmr...
hahas...
GOOD LUCK!!!

Thats all folks...

2006-11-14T20:24:00.000+08:00

Booya!
Alrights...I'm sorry abt the previous post...I'm just very upset and disaapointed right now...yea..
So forgive me for saying those words...yea...
Still can't seem to get it out of my system...

Sigh...
Anyways...Tmr's physics...yups...
Just wanna wish everybody good luck...yups...To 4E1 esp...yups...
Hope I will do well tmr...

Off to study my physics now then...
bye.

I've never been the kind,
To ever let my feelings show,
And I thought that bein' strong,
Meant never losin' your self-control,
But I'm just drunk enough,
To let go of my pain ,
To hell with my pride,
Let it fall like rain from my eyes,
Tonight I wanna cry.

*(abstract from Tonight I Wanna Cry by Keith Urban)

I really wanna cry.

2006-11-13T16:33:00.000+08:00

Booya!
Alrights...ytd I said I wld blog again ytd night...but that did not happen...so yea...
nth much happen ytd night...only that I was like tucking my bros in...yea...we kinda like talk for awhile la...
then we started talking abt the old times...all the funny things that happened...yea...
Kinda cool...really brought back many many memories...yea...
I'd wld like to that again after my Os man..just staying there in their rooms and sharing abt our funny moments growing up...come to think of it I kinda miss being young...I wld do anything to relieve those moments...in dreams if need be...yea...It will be damn cool...hahas..
really...
I really miss those times man...really...hahas...

Ok...back to reality...Needa get back to my revision for my Os...
yea...gonna do physics and Amaths...

So got lots to do and learn...so...
I'll try to blog again tonight...yea...
ha!

Here to add on...hahas!ok..so I've been doing my physics and my Amaths erm..matrics...yea...So i came here just to wish everyone Good luck for tmr's Amaths paper 1 exam...Esp to my class..yea...
Best of Luck tmr everyone!!!

Bye!

When i look up in the sky i see you,
And then i turn and close my eyes and its you,
And when im sitting all alone in my room,
Everything reminds me of you.

*(Lyrics from the song It's you by Ryan Cabrera)

2006-11-12T14:07:00.000+08:00

Booya!
hahas...so this is a much earlier post than usual...hahas!
well just had my last tuition lesson for the year...hahas...yups...
Maybe I'll miss having tuition there after all...I mean it's 2 years la..so...yea...been going there for maths tuition...yea...
Ok...preparing for the Amaths Os...yea...
Hopefully I'll be able to get an A1 for Amaths...
Yea...Gonna do physics later on...yups...
hahas...
hmmm...probably blog again at night or smth...

yups...
as for now I gotta go study my Physics..yea...

See ya later!

2006-11-11T20:18:00.000+08:00

Booya!
Alrights...so today I was woken up by yet another weird dream...I'm telling you man...These dreams get weirder and weirder...No kidding...I'm beginning to think that the Os are messing to mess with my brain man...I mean ever since it started...boy have these dreams haunted me..And its not like a dream a night thing it like dreams as much as you can while you sleep!!I mean...I've to get up a few times man...like a few days ago,I dreamt abt me receiving an award for being the surprise of the year...I have no idea what I've done I'm telling...it's crazy...then just last night I dreamt of my Os score...let me tell you it ain't good at all...ok...In my dream I looked at my results from like up to down la...ok..the first three was damn power...Bio,Physics,Amaths A1!!!How cool was that...I was like damn happy already...then I looked down further...Guess wad...the rest were d7s!!!!!WTH!!!
I got a freaking score of 24!!!English,Combi Humans,Emaths D7>>!!!!!
I totally flipped and I woke up...yea...I mean who would not considering the dream I just had...I mean there weren't any monsters or scary stuff...but heck!It's the worst nigthmare!!!
I dun like having these dreams man...It totally is damn freaking weird...I hate it...hahas..
oh well...I just hope its not some kind of bad omen...yea..hahas...

ok..anyways...I had Amaths tuition again today...yea...did the RI paper..quite cool...yea...
then did history today...yea..japan..wooo!

hahas..

thats all folks...thats all...ha!

2006-11-10T20:52:00.000+08:00

Booya!!!
Alrights...so today I had the Emaths paper 2 exam...I think it was pretty alright...
Yea..except that for section B we were suppose to choose either this or that...but I did both!!!
Then it was like the qn 11...I drew the graph all nice nice...then I thought I finished alr...so I went bakc to check my work la...I checked through from the first qn to the last...so when I like came to the last qn..qn 11,I found out that I did not do 2 part qns...worth 3 marks...so I like panicked alr...so I picked up my pen hastily...BUT!!...Before I cld open my pen cap,the teacher said pens down!!!
I said"Shit!!damn it la...3 marks gone...then I was like damn sad la...then we were suppose to like write the qn number on the cover page la..then the teacher said:"boys,write 1,2,3,4....10 OR 11"
Then I was like 10 or 11????then I read the instructions..hahas...rights...I cld choose..so of cuz I threw my qn 11 into the dustbin...ha!so cool la...
Thank god...really...hahas...--I guess you don't feel the same way at all--

ok..so after that had tuition for Amaths...attended the lesson rather tiredly...yea...dunno y i'm like so tired...I have not been sleeping well for the past few nights...its like filled with endless dreams man...I'm telling you...on wednesday I had this dream that I was a race car driver..then I was racing...damn cool la...then got the arenaline feeling sommore...damn shoik...
then on thursday I had a dream that I was having maths tuition when got like ppl come hijack the place...of cause its all in my dreams..but really la..damn weird...its the first time i'm getting this sort of dreams...yea...so pretty cool yet weird...hahas!
yea...wad else do I have to write?hahas..
nth I guess...

Nights ppl!

2006-11-09T21:28:00.000+08:00

Booya ppl!!!Booya!
Yups...so today was the Bio exam...ok..paper 1...
Alrights...well...I flipped open the qn paper...read the first qn...ok...hmm..then guess wad...I did not know how to do!!!ok for those who took the test...qn 1 is damn bloody easy...
Ok..so I skipped that qn...went on to qn 2...and guess wad...I did not know that too...yea...
Then went on to the subsequent qns...yea...all also not so sure...and yea I was suffering from a mental block..how nice...so I calmed meself down...telling myself that it's just a another test..yea,...so went on..and it got better...yups...then I finished the paper in 30 mins.So I cld like re-do the whole thing again..so I redid it la...then managed to safe 3 wrongs...but still I had mistakes...yea...
ok...then that was it...
So paper 2 was next...yea...ok..started off by refering to section B the essay qn...I read the first essay qn...ok...still able to cope...then I read the next...Qn 7..then I read part b of that qn...Wow..well done...7 marks and I did not study that...yea..only roughly...So I said DIE!!!
yea...ok..then I went to the either or section..ok la..the qn was not that bad...yea...
so overall after much complaining I guess Bio was quite alright...but I can only dream abt getting an A...yea...sad...but true...yups...
haha...Sometimes I just feel like telling you how I feel...But I'm afraid it will kill the friendship instead...

ok..so had Tuition for Emaths paper 2 just now..rights..was the last Emaths tuition lesson...yea...
Anyways...the next few days I'll be having Amaths tuition so..yea...hopefully it benefits...yups..I think it will la...yea...Looks like I'll never know how you feel and you'll never know how I feel...unless....

kk...So tmr is Emaths paper 2...
Wanna wish the Best Of Luck to my class...yups...Lets do well together!!!!

hahas...

Thats all folks!!

2006-11-08T20:14:00.000+08:00

Boooooooya!!!!
Rights...So today was the English exam...yups...Ok I wun say it was very very difficult but Im not sure if I'm able to score...I hope I do though...yups...
Ok...so I did the Situational writing first...Boy...I hope that Chee keong fella get me good marks...I supported his idea man...So I hope he does bring me good marks...But of course that is if I did a good job explaining abt his brilliant idea...
ha!
ok..then as for the free writing section I did the holiday ones...yea...so I'm not sure if I went out of point or smth...I hope I did not...I relly do...
hahas...It's all in the hands of the markers now...yups...

Ok...enuff abt today's test...it's already over and done...
Alrights...so tmr I'm gonna sit for my Bio test...yups...
So I wanna wish everyone in my class the Best of Luck for tmr's exam...hope it will be a breeze for us all...yups!

hahas!

Thats all...Gotta get back to my Bio...

Bye!

2006-11-07T20:45:00.000+08:00

Booya!
Good evening ppl!!!
hahas...Ok I realised that I did not blog ytd...so here I am...
Well for starters let me rattle on abt ytds emaths and ss test...
alrights...well...the Emaths test was pretty alright I guess...So lets hope I get good marks and do well in paper 2!
ha!hmmm...For SS i'm not that confident...I think I wrote too much crap and stuff...so I'm hoping my hist will not be like that...Im gonna try to prevent a similar thing from happening...yups...
The end gets closer....

Anyways...tmr is the all IMPORTANT English Os!!!
hahas...
So again I wanna wish everyone good luck!
Esp to 4E1,my class...hahahas!
yups...hope we'll all do well!!!
All the best!!!!hahahas!
hahas...

Good Luck ppl!!!

2006-11-05T21:10:00.000+08:00

Booya!
Hey everyone!!!
Alrights...been studying my SS and Emaths the whole day...Well I'm preparing for the Os tmr...
Yups...
So I just wanna wish everyone Good Luck for tmr's Exam...yups...the best of luck!!!
Esp to my class 4E1...hahahs!!!...To you too....
Yups...Hope I do well tmr!!!

hahas...

Thats all folks!!

2006-11-04T19:13:00.000+08:00

Booya!
Yups...This is my 150th post...HA!
How time really flies...ha!
Alrights...ok..so today well..there was alot of like uncertain minds abt the SS paper on monday...
What chapters to learn,What chapters will come out?
These were the hot qns...
yups...
I dunno la...but all the calling and asking really unsettled me la..now i'm left wondering if wad I learnt is gonna be sufficient or will the Os play me out...u get what I mean?now now...I dun want the Os to play me out man...I will flip...I'll go bananas...
So i dun want that to go wrong esp not on the first day of the Os....No way...No way...
yea... I'm not one to show my feelings.It's a feeling I dun understand.But I actually care about you...
I also dunno y la..but I'm like feeling damn frustrated and pissed???I mean I seldom get pissed man...but now i'm like feeling pissed...I wonder wads causing this...could it be...exams stress?..i dun think so...I mean i dun feel stress la...hmm...i dunno man...but really la..being pissed is damn funny man...ha!
So in the end I think i will stick to wad I've learn la...no point doing last minute anyways...
Lets just hope the bio will be less of a hassle...ha!

Anyways during dinner my brother poured coke over my head man...ha!
so yea...it was a first...damn cool la...did not expect him to really pour it...ha!

Thats all for today folks!

2006-11-03T20:53:00.000+08:00

Booya!
Today was again all SS...But not as much...
But I still feel as though what I studied for SS is not gonna be enough...I dunno man...
Feeling very uncertain...
Haiz...
Anyways...I too had Emaths tuition today.yups...Then for some reason,I have no idea what reasonI was like talking and laughing almost throughout the whole lesson...yea...It was fun...
yea...So because of the tuition I missed Goong...hahas!
well too bad...studies have to come first...
yea...
Even though I took a nap today,I was bloody awoken by a telephone call...I mean I'm a damn light sleeper la..so I shud not put a phone in my room...but its there la...dun plan to take the phone away too...
Yea...hmmm...

That shud be all I have to blog so far...
Nth much la..
I mean its the exam period..so what else can I do?...STUDY la!
so ya..anyways...even when the exams are over I will not have anything interesting to blog also la...
I mean I will probably gonna play soccer almost everyday after the Os la..so...
Again its the same thing day in day out...For those thinkin:"this guy play soccer everyday not sian ar?"...Was I feeling jealous????I'm not sure....
Well let me just say...To me its not even bored because each game is different...no two games will be the same...yea...so you still will not know what to expect...yea..
So its not borin...
yea...
hmmm...
ok..as you can see i'm trying to make my entry damn long...but then again..who even bothers to read??ha!
What can I say I'm a damn boring guy....ha!

okok...
Thats all folks!

"I will be there giving my very best,gonna give all I've got,I'm gonna give myself the best of chances!"

2006-11-02T20:29:00.000+08:00

Booya!
So it's really been all SS for me today again...It actually feels kinda weird that I'm all memorising when the exam is like 4 days away...I mean last time I used to do it like the day before and stuff...so ya...It kinda feels a little weird...ha!yups...
I think I still started like too late though...I dunno y...But for the first time I feel as though I'm not that well prepared for all my tests...I mean I have already started on my Bio and SS yea...But to me it still seems a bit far?you get wad I mean?yea...
Then I would like feel vexed and stuff...Yea...So...I plan to continue my Bio after taking a break of abt 5 days from it?yea...around there...I dun think I've completely forgotten all that I'd learn but I think I would need some refreshing...Yups...Hopefully I would be alright when the exams comes..I mean its like just 4 days away man...So now the time concern sinks in...Getting a little anxious...More worried...hahas!
Anyways...I will continue to work hard...I should be able to do it...I should...

hahas!
Anyways on a lighter note,everytime I watch Goong..You know the korean drama?..yea that one...erm.everytime I watch it I get this very weird feeling...I dunno wad feeling is that but I keep feeling it...Yea..its damn weird a feeling man...I'm telling you...ha!
And I like can't wait for the Os to be over and done with man...
But on the other hand I also kinda dun want it to end...

Yea..I think thats abt it for today!!

Hey...That's all folks!

2006-11-01T18:24:00.000+08:00

Booya!!!
SS.Been studying SS all the way...All the way...Since ytd only though...ha!
Ok so spent my whole day on education...as in really on education...you'll get what I mean,it ain't that hard to figure...ha!
Anyways...there's tuition later...so after tuition I probably continue with my SS...yups!
Can we be more than just friends?
ok..so again I just woke up...AGAIN!
ha!

So here's some crap:

They all say there's something I lack,

Told me to stay away from the pack,

I was pushed all the way to the back,

They all say I'm a slack,

All they wanted to do is give me a nice hard whack...

It ain't my fault for this crap,

It always happens after a nap,

It's as though I woke up from a slap,

But hey,Give me a break I ain't a quack,

Boy you ,must be thinking:"This guy's wack"

I don't blame you.

Write me off now have you?

Well it's at your own peril.

For "I'm Back!!!".....

(The only problem is....back from where?)

Have a nice day ppl!

2006-10-31T18:27:00.000+08:00

Booya!!!
What a day!
hahas..alrights first I had chem pract right...ya..well that went alright I guess...not much of a hiccup...yups...
So after that watched the longest yard...cool show...its a show bout a bunch of guys,convicts who gets to play football with their guard...hahas!pretty cool show...
anyways...I went home and slept till now!
ya...so nth much happens...If I could read minds,yours would be the first I'd read.I'm dying to know what you think of me?

ok...here's some of my crap...
Heard of the phrase :"looks can be decieving" well smth like that...along that lines la go figure..anyways...I was thinking...that phrase is actually quite true man...I mean look at it this way...you go to the fruit store and you buy that all red and juicy looking apple...Well you take a bite out of it...guess wad...you just squenched a worm in between your teeth...point is...dun buy an apple that is red and juicy looking!!??..NO!!!dun buy the apple becuz it looks good on the outside...for all you know there could be shit in there...so looks can be decieving
ok...another one...
You see this kid...big kid...really really big...the biggest you've ever seen,you'd probably won't want to mess with him...ok..so one day maybe you got up the wrong side of bed or took a real nasty knock on your head...you walk up to him,and you...snatch his lunch his mama made...your friends seeing this starts to back off from you...the big kid looks at you and asks you to return his lunch to him...well...you ain't gonna give it back..so you say:"hey big guy,your lunch is real good too bad you need a cut down on these lunch"...ok..so now everybody around you starts to think OMG!!!! in their heads of cause...everyone expects the big guy to pound you right up...but guess wad..he says:"my mommy made that,I could ask her to make another set for you?" in a calm voice and all...not a wee bit angry...man he ain't gonna pound you...ok now your taken aback...so you start shouting at him...swearing...he gets up is seat and goes:"I'm telling my mommy!!!"and he cries all the way home...hahas...yea...so looks can be decieving...

ok so to end my point is....yea...rights...erm...i dun have any points tp make...the abstract above was purely fictional and just a figment of wad my tiny brain likes to pop out....if i offended anyone i'm sorry...think I must have knocked my heard real hard this time hahahas!!!

Thats all folks!

I'm crappy,I'm useless,I'm ugly,I suck at every thing(well,almost).That's life...

2006-10-30T20:39:00.000+08:00

Booya!!!
Here's my second post of the day!!
ha!yea..i did one in the morning...ha!!!
alright alrights...
spent the whole day reading my chem practs and notes...ha!
yups...tmr is the O lvl chem pract exam alr..hahas!
so...here to just wish everyone taking the exam the best of luck!!!
ha!
esp my class 4E1!!!
hahas...
All the best!!!hahahahas!!!
Hope i do well....ha!
I think i'm beginning to...
Hmmm...All I wanna know is what I am to you...but I'm afraid to ask....hahas!

Have a nice night ppl!

Chances.When they come you ought to grab them and never let go,for they may come only once. (Like how you chanced upon this. Ha!)

2006-10-30T09:59:00.000+08:00

Booya!!
hahas...yups..i changed skin...hmmm...do u find it abit girly?
i'm not sure...hahas..
anyways...
its monday...hahas...i wanted to blog ytd night..but there were some problems..hahas..
so i did not managed to blog in the end...hahas!
hmm..ok...nth much interesting happening here...
only on saturday...
ha!
Wad a match...and ROONEY SCORED A HAT-TRICK!!!
ha!its nice to have him back...he's a wonderful genius...
WOOO!!

hmmm..thats abt all..will blog again later on...ha!

Can you see this???

2006-10-27T22:16:00.000+08:00

Booya!!!!
alrights..its FRIDAY!!!
hahas..well..on normal days i wld be very happy to hear that...but...not today...
the reason is simple...it simply means a day closer to the Os man...hahas...
man...i think having exams shud be made a festival man...i mean at least theres some fun in it..ha!
ok..i dun get wad i'm typing...but yea...festive mood...for the past 9 years i'd probably be enjoying myself right now...but nononono...Os has to come for all sec 4s...damn...meaning i've to hit the books this time of the year...i mean no offence man,...but i just celebrated hari raya...festive mood!
then i go up to my room...looks at my table...and guess wad i see...a messed up table with books and wksht lying evry where...as i said normally my table wld be neat and books all stacked AWAY!!!
but the Os are coming so they get an extended vacation on my table...ha!

rights...anyways..today had tuition erm...for emaths...i think i muz be dreaming but there was no hmwk...cool...hahas...
well..i still have a stack of Emaths on my table given by my teacher...yups...
shudbe touching them really soon...hahas..
hmmm...this post is quite long...
not too bad for a useless guy...
and i thought i was stupid and nonsensical..well pretty much but i never knew it wld be this long when i started out..
i mean there's got to be more than 100 words here..is there?
hahas..
which means its like close to a summary or half a compo...but my compos are that short...usually SHORTER!!!
ha!

ok.. i think i'm really crapping ur guts and mine out...so so so sorry...
hahas...

As things stand i think i'll stop here...nth else to blog anyways...so hahas..

GOODNIGHTS!!!
oh..i aint sleeping yet...ha!

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I like S................
Ha!
here's a clue...( it might be living or non-living)ha!
Good luck guessing ha!!!!

2006-10-26T22:09:00.000+08:00

Ha!!!
ok.first and foremost..i would like to thank all those who made the class CD and laminated photos...you guys sure put in alot of time into it..thnks!!
hahas...
ok...hmm.today was physics pract...well i guess it was alright...not that easy but then again it was not that hard either...it was wooden sticks and marbles..ha!
hahas..ok..lets hope i do well for it..hahas..
ok..up next is chem pract..on tuesday..hahas...yups...
after that is the papers alr.
hahas..so fast...oh well..lets get this over and done with and get to christmas FAST!!!!
i really miss the festive mood...ha!
hmmm...
yea...thats abt it..hahas..

i have no way to make this any longer..hahas!!!

i think thats abt it..ha!!!

nights ppl!!!

2006-10-25T21:01:00.000+08:00

PHYSICS Pract is tmr!!!
The O Levels!!!
ok..relax...
i'm here just to wish all taking physics pract tmr...
To 4E1 esp...hahahas!!!
hmmm..i guess my day was pretty much alright...nth much happening here...
hmmm..
yups...

hahas!!!

Good luck ppl!!!!!

----

Just wad is this I feel????

2006-10-24T21:42:00.000+08:00

Alright there...
here i am again to basically crap abt my life...
well..as many sec 4s know...the Os are ard the corner...yups...so...
I spent my day today studying and studying and reading and reading...hmmm...fun huh...
yups...i guess the most fun part was having tuition today...i mean its not always i say this...but yea...
u know y...cuz theres like ppl who u can converse and share a little laugh here and there...
but u know wad made it fun is probably becuz i ran!!!
i finally managed to run...after 2 weeks of just sticking my butt to the chair and reading and studyign the textbook...i finally cld sweat and run...i tell u the feeling is absolutely wonderful...ok..to some i'm mad...but yea...
If only i was playing soccer...that wld be perfect..but yea...study comes first,life comes after that...life as in soccer...u know interests..ya...that kind of thing...
but its tough to shut soccer out of ur life i'm telling u...hahas..
I think abt it almost all the time..erm...times when i'm not studying..hahas..ya...those times..hahas...
although it shares with other stuff...but i'm pretty sure soccer takes up 95% of my non-study time..hahas...yea..mad right...but soccer fans get my drift..do you?
erm..well..its hard to live without soccer once u experience it...hahas..ya.
so go try a little soccer...do some fancy moves that you watch on tv...bambozzle ur opponent...experience the joy of simply scoring...hahas..magnificent...

rights...i think i better stop..or i may sound as though i'm selling soccer...hahas!!!

hmmm..besides that nth much happen...yups...

Cyaz!

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I just realise not long ago that that guy had all the luck...Shall not elaborate...but ya...he was so lucky...ha!!!

2006-10-24T00:04:00.000+08:00

Booya!
oks...according to my watch its 11.59...hahas..a minute to midnight...
yups...today was kinda alright i guess...managed to squeeze in some studying..as in really study..but there were still a few distractions...which i plan to cut down on...
rights...
hmmm...wad else...
I've been listening to Christian Bautista's songs recently and let me tell u this guy is good....
his songs have lots of meaning...as in i can relate to it...not all but ya...some!
hahas..
hmm...nth much to add...

Thats all folks!!!

2006-10-22T17:03:00.000+08:00

Booya!!!
Here's smth that pop-ed in my mind...hahas!

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The carousel started up.There she was in front of me.Her back in full view.
Round and Round we went.Her hair swaying in the wind,her smile as beautiful as ever.
In the coolness of the night,under the pale yellow spotlights,she seemed to glow.
I could not take my eyes off her...There and then,it seemed as though there was only me and her on that carousel.
This was the very girl that I had admired my entire life...This was the closest I got to her.
At that very point,I had the urge to walk up and grab her by the hand,telling her how I truly felt.
However as always,I lackedthe courage for I knew I would never be good enough for her.
At last I plucked up enough coourage,I opened my mouth calling her,but...At that very moment,the carousel stuttered to a standstill just before I could call her name.
She got off.I stood rooted,a sense of disappointment and regret sank within my heart.
Just when I had the courage...
As I watched her weave her way into the large crowd,
Tears welled in my eyes,she was so near yet at the very same time too far,well beyond my reach.
The conductor dragged me off the carousel.
I made my way through the crowds,in the opposite direction from where she went.
My head was down,hands in my pockets,I made my way home.
Home.Home to me was the nearest darkest alley.I laid a few wet cardboard boxes that I had found down on the hard cement.
I laid down,staring at the star filled sky,as my thoughts drifted to the beautiful girl I saw.
I saw her dancing elegantly in a golden seamed gown...She was just...Beautiful...
How am I,a pauper ever get the attention of this beautiful girl,the girl of my dreams?
That question stayed with me as I made my way to my wonderland,the place of my dreams.........

2006-10-20T21:41:00.000+08:00

Booya!
okok...today is friday...i mean its obvious...hahas...
hmmm...had a 3 hr tuition for emaths...hmmm..quite ok la...quite fun too..hahas..
hmm...then...thats abt it..hahas..
I was abt to blog smth but i for got now..hmmm...i guess i will blog again when i can rmb..dumb right?..hahas..well thats me...i have STM...
hahas...

eh...i did not do anything to you why u come scold me??
And I dun think I like anyone at the moment...
I mean even if I do like someone now..i dun think anyone will like a cappy person...ha!

2006-10-18T23:02:00.000+08:00

Booya!!!
hahas...realise i keep saying that in my posts these days...must be seeing too much of kim possible...the cartoon show..ya..ron likes to say that..hahas..i know its kind of childish of me right...but i have a childhood u know..and i enjoy living it..hahas...but come to think of it..its kind of catchy u know..hahas...
anyways...i shall go back to blogging...now let me see..ok..i last blogged like on the 30th of sep..not too long ago i suppose..hahas..
ok..lots of things happened to me from that day till today...ya..lots...erm..i think so..hahas..
ok lets see wad i can rmb...hmmm...
ok...actually i still cannot rmb..oh ya!!!my results..ok...not too good...ya...feel sad...the end..thats abt it regarding results..
ok..hmm..oh yes...grad night..yea..had it recently...yups...pretty cool...not too bad..more fun than i tot...really...i think i may even miss St.Gabs and my frens..ya..and i tot leaving the school's gonna be easy...well..i dun think so anymore..i mean i had lots of fun in my 4 years in that school..been into 2 great classes..i say 2 becuz they have been like the same frens in it..hahas..u get wad i mean..dun get also i can do nth...
ya...ok..wad else...hmmm..
been to open houses...2 only actually..
hmm..i dun even know if i can make it..hahas..i hope so..but only hardwork and time will tell...ha!!!!
hmmm...
wad else...

ok..just last night..i was like lying in my bed la..then i was listening to some songs...then i was like playing some images or movie in my head u getwad i mean...hmmm...anyways...it was..like made up of many of my frens from school to tuition...ya..soccer...hmm...then i was like on the verge of crying i guess..i aslo dunno y la..must have been the cough mixture i took..the sticker on the bottle said : may cause drowsyness...
so maybe i was feeling drowsy..hahas..
hmmm..alrights...
wad else...
i think thats abt it i think..hahas...

ok...i shall end here...hahas...

2006-09-30T20:38:00.000+08:00

Booya!!!
Arights..ok...long time never blog...
well ok...friday played bball..then the ball hit my face and my specs scratched my eye..now i'm scarred..ha!making an ugly person uglier...ha!!!!
ok..then got back a few results..u now wads the frustrating thing is?most i get are 4s..no 3s or 2s...haiz...hope i can get them for the rest of my tests...hahas...

ok..so today was a rather rainy day...
and i was bored at home nth to do so i wrote this just for fun...hahas...

Pitter-patter,Pitter-patter...

Raindrops falling onto my window,

Outside,gently the wind blows.

Left to right,the trees sway,

The leaves rustling through the day.

The crickets begins to sing,

Ah...the rubbing of the wings.

Close your eyes slowly...

Hear the melody,

The melody of a rainy day........

ok...i know it aint that good but hey...i tried...ha!

2006-09-25T21:44:00.000+08:00

I'll trip,I'll stumble,even fumble my way through,
But let me tell you this,
Nothing will ever keep me down,I'll never drown,
I'll never cower from it,
Instead I will say.....
JUST BRING IT!!!

Alrights...oks...got back some of my marks...and erm...i got like 73.3+++ meaning i missed A1 by 2 MARKS!!!
just 2 marks...damn...
hahas...then i did better for english but it is still not good enuff...so...ya...needa work harder...hahas!!!

thats abt it..hahas...

2006-09-24T22:04:00.000+08:00

Finally,the day has come,
Everything has been all set and done,
I'll walk to school with my head up high,
Nothing will ever make me sigh...

Hahas...let's hope it comes and stays true!!
Good luck 4E1!!

Ok..was searching thru my bags and i found this little sentence that was written in my diary...I wrote it la...hahas...
I wrote it sometime ago...hahas...

So since its been there...might as well just write it up here lest i forget them hahas...
Anyways as I wrote them long ago..they do not have the meanings of what i feel now...
its not what i feel now...dun get the wrong idea...hahas...

The things you said,like heavy stones,

It has crushed my every bone.

My life will carry on,

But love shall never be gone.

Caused too much trouble,

I knew then,it was impossible.

This was due long ago,

When things just refused to flow.

Took sometime,

Cleared my mind.

Girl,there's a tear in my eye,

Goodbye......

2006-09-22T21:47:00.000+08:00

Wondering what it'll be,
The anxiety's killing me,
Good or bad?
Happy or sad?
Will the grades go up or down?
Will I smile or frown?
Have I done myself proud?
Did I end with a shout?

Thoughts of the Prelims pacing to and fro,
Just how did it go?
The papers are inthe marker's hands,
There's nothing left that I can do to change the end.
Only to strive harder,
For the better...

Fidgety and sweaty palms,
Just how can I remain calm?
Knowing if I flop,
I'll have to face the chop.
What does the future hold?
Can someone please let me know?
The wait's painful,
Is there something I can do?
Even if its temporary,
I'll take it with much glee...

The day's ending...
I can really do with less worrying.
Finallly,I lie in my bed,
Trying to forget the troubles in my head...
As I lay,
I began to sway...
At last,I fall asleep...

Hahas...What a day!
Played soccer like crazy...
Now feel like i'm dying...hahas...
kks...
By the way..the thing above is regarding my prelims and nth else...hahas....

kk...dead beat...my face is red...i'm radiating heat...
So i'm off to bed....

**Goodnights**

2006-09-21T23:12:00.000+08:00

Trust me this really took a very long time,
In the past I had love as a topic to ryhme,
Now all I have is dirt and grime...

As I've said this stuff ain't really my forte,
So dun blame me if I ruined your day,
Just read it and be on your way...

Life has taught me many things,
Many times it has changed the way I think,
The list will never end if I were to put them all down in ink...

Heartbreaks and sadness,
Let's just say these are life's little lessons,
Without them you'd me nothing more than useless...

Take challenges on,
For they shall make you strong,
If you fail,learn from your every wrong...

Bracing myself in anxiety,
Wondering if my results fits reality,
For now though,I go to bed dreamily...

Dreaming of what the future might present,
As I wait for my fairytale ending..........

Alrights..damn tired already...brains abit slow liao..hahas...
I think i shall go sleep..tmr still must wake up early to play soccer...ha!

P.S: Sorry if that rhyming thing up there brings vomit and blood out of ur mouths!
ha!

**Nicholas Ambrose**

2006-09-21T18:27:00.000+08:00

AT last!!!
The prelims are over....but wait.....rejoice no furthere cause that means that the Os is juz a step away...wooo....
rights.....
so here I am sitting here keen to learn how well I fared...
Anxious to know where this will take me...
Regardlesss..i will still work hard....and do my best...hahas...
But...right now...i'm gonna juz enjoy the next few days...yups..gonna play soccer...yea...nice...

till here...

Byebye...

2006-09-18T06:51:00.000+08:00

Hello there....
hahas...oks..a quick one...today's the physics prelims...hahas...

so just here to wish the e1's good luck....hahas...GOOD LUCK PPL!!!!

Off to school now...Adios...

2006-09-14T23:56:00.000+08:00

Heys!!!
hahas...yups..today was alright..went to school for the emaths paper 2 in the afternoon...ya...
Was alright i hope...i did all the qns..but whether right or wrong is a diff matter la...hahas...
yups...thats abt it for today...its very late and i'm very tired...gotta go sleep now...needa study for Amaths paper 1 tmr...hahas....

yups...
To all e1s, GOOD LUCK TMR!!!!

2006-09-13T23:53:00.000+08:00

HELLOS!!!
hahahas...
well..its kinda a very tedious week for me...and next week as well with the prelims...
yups...the all impt exams that shows if you are heading the right direction...
yups...well the test i had so far,Emaths Paper1,Bio,SS,english...hmmm...i think i have done much better than the mid years...well at least thats wad i feel...ya...
oks..so tmr is the Emaths paper 2 yups...hope i do well for it...yups...

so...
Here's wishing the e1's the very BEST OF LUCK TMR!!!hahas...

2006-09-11T22:38:00.000+08:00

Booya!
Hahas...welll maybe the bio pract today was abit hard...hmmm...oh wells...its over...**fingers crossed**

Rights...Tmr we will be having 2 papers...Emaths paper 1 and SS...Lets hope I can keep a calm head into the exam...yups...me nervous means forgetting evrything...yups...so ya...praying for a calm mind...hahahas...

Anyways..be4 i end,just wanna wish all E1 pupils GOOD LUCK TMR!!!

Adios!

2006-09-11T00:01:00.000+08:00

Booya!
Hahas....here I am blogging close to midnight after cramming my bio and SS into my head...well..lets just say i'm feeling the heat of prelims already.
hahahs....
yups...well i studied for my bio pract tmr...studied plants...ya...like wad happens to the glucose that is made..ya..then how water moves up the plant from the soil and all...yups..then learnt abt the flower..the stamens and pistils all..ya..then calyxa and the plumule and radicle all..ya...tmr gonna learn the test for fats proteins and carbo...hahas...ya...
Then SS i learned the industrailization...like wad singapore did and stuff...wooing of MNCs and then the incentives given to attract foreign investors..and then the IAC,NTUC and NWC all to improve working conditions all..hahas...ya..then fewer man days lost that kind...hahas...then learnt that the jtc built light industries near residential areas and heavy one away...ya...then learned how singapore remained competitive all..ahhas...yups...
thats wad i learned for today...ha!

thats abt for today...ahhas...

oh ya..GOOD LUCK TO ALL BIO STUDENTS TMR!!!
hahas...

Cyaz!

2006-09-06T22:28:00.000+08:00

Booya!!!
Alrights...just here to intro you ppl a song...
It's Vincent (Starry, Starry Night) by Josh Groban...
hahahas...

Here's the lyrics:

Vincent (Starry, Starry Night)by Josh Groban

Starry, starry night

Paint your palette blue and gray.

Look out on a summer's day

With eyes that know the darkness in my soul.

Shadows on the hills,

Sketch the trees and daffodils,

Catch the breeze and the winter chill

In colors on the snowy linen land.

Chorus

Now I understand what you tried to say to me

And how you suffered for your sanity

And how you tried to set them free.

They would not listen.

They did not know how.

Perhaps they’ll listen now.

Starry, starry night

Flaming flowers that brightly blaze

Swirling cloud and violet haze

Reflect in Vincent’s eyes of China blue.

Colors changing hue.

Mourning fields of amber grain

Weathered faces lined in pain

Are soothed beneath the artist’s loving hands.

Chorus

Now I understand what you tried to say to me

And how you suffered for your sanity

And how you tried to set them free.

They would not listen

They did not know howPerhaps they’ll listen now.

For they could not love you

But still your love was true.

And when no hope was left inside

On that starry, starry night

You took your life as lovers often do.

But I could have told you,

Vincent,

This world was never meant for one as beautiful as you.

Like the strangers that you’ve met,

The ragged men in ragged clothes.

The silver thorn, a bloody rose

Lie crushed and broken on the virgin snow.

Now I think I know what you tried to say to me

And how you suffered for your sanity.

And how you tried to set them free.

They would not listen.

They’re not listening still

Perhaps they never will...

2006-09-04T16:18:00.000+08:00

Here I go,
Charging with every step.
No turning back,
Its the final hurdle.
Finishing with aplomb,
Thats my main aim.
Smooth and sleek,
That's how it goes.
Out comes knowledge,
4 years of them.
Giving my all,
Going for the best.
I won't slack,
For the very best.
Its show time,
Lights,pens,ACTION!
Page by page,
Words filling every line.
Time's almost up,
This chapter's gonna end.
Like a fairytale,
All's well end's well...=)

Wrote that myself...hahas...
Os are coming,Gonna give my best shot...
All talk no action?
Well,u decide.=>

2006-09-03T15:11:00.000+08:00

Life goes on!!!
Hahahas....Was listening to Brian Mcknight's one last cry on the radio last night...
Yups...It kinda enlightened me a little..
Yups...I guess I must let go...
Hahas...And let go is what I will do..hahas...
Took me the entire of 25 days to figure that out...hahahas...
So ya...I've let go...
Gonna carry on living my life...
Yups...afterall everything else has been going on...
So ya...I decided that we shall just be friends...hahas....
How stupid can I get?
hahas...well after 25 days...I finally am able to let go...hahas...

-------

Rights...So today again went for tuition...yups...then came home..and here I am...
Gonna have a physics practical for prelims tmr...
Good luck for tmr ppl!!!!
All the best!!!
Lets be Physics prpfessors tmr!!!!
hahahas...thats abt it...

Cyaz!!!

Looks like this time you really won the bet...
I've let go...

2006-09-02T18:57:00.000+08:00

With the song Beautiful by Jim Brickman playing in the background,
Here I am typing this post.Well I juz woke up from a rather long nap.No ideas why I'm so tired.
Well later I've to study my bio and read my Amaths.Prelim Prelims.HA!
Oks..today was fine I guess..Went to my Dad's new office/company then had some sort of a pot-luck yups...quite nice food..really...hahas...but guess wad..all that came were my dad's frens and like none was of my age..hahahas...WAd a joke...
okoks...
thats abt it for me today again not much mood to write,nth much happening either.
So...ya...
I guess I shall end...

Enjoy your day PPL!!!

Gleefully erased.
Is Ignorance really Bliss????

2006-09-01T20:17:00.000+08:00

Today was boring...Actually quite expected la...Considering that its close to the prelims...Haiz...
Ya...so today..spent time at home studying...welll..
Tried to..dunno if anything went in..hahas...
Ya..then at 5.30 went for tuition...
hhahas...quite ok la..tuition...quite fun...
Gave tuition teacher a present from 4 of us...
hahas...yups...
then thats abt it la...

byes....

I hate days when I have lots of time...
It means more time to think abt you...
24 hrs a day...24 hrs thinking of you...
But I'm not complaining...
Although you have already erased me from your memory with much glee...

All I want to say now is that...

I still love you...

2006-08-31T17:14:00.000+08:00

Oks...today went to the CCAB stadium...then it was like raining heavily la...ya...then the best part was that We actually missed the stop by 2 stops...hahas...We as in me and my frens...ya...
so ya..gotta head over and catch the other bus...wad a joke...hahas..
then it was like raining so heavily la...then rain stop rain stop..hahas...Then we had to go to the botanic gardens for a walk in the RAIN...hahas...skill la...hahas...
yups..thats abt it...
NTh much as usual...

Recently I've been like getting reminders of the times we spent talking...
And I've been hearing this song by rascal flatts...
And the lyrics is kinda like what my heart wants to say...so...

Here it is,hope you undetrstand...

My Wish by Rascal Flatts

Verse 1

I hope the days come easy and the moments pass slow

And each road leads you where you want to go

And if you’re faced with the choice and you have to choose

I hope you choose the one that means the most to you

And if one door opens to another door closed

I hope you keep on walkin’ ‘til you find the window

If it’s cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile

But more than anything, more than anything

Chorus

My wish for you

Is that this life becomes all that you want it to

Your dreams stay big, your worries stay small

You never need to carry more than you can hold

And while you’re out there gettin’ where you’re gettin’ to

I hope you know somebody loves you

And wants the same things too

Yeah, this is my wish

Verse 2

I hope you never look back but you never forget

All the ones who love you And the place you left

I hope you always forgive and you never regret

And you help somebody every chance you get

Oh, you find God’s grace in every mistake

And always give more than you take

But more than anything, yeah more than anything

(Chorus)

This is my wish I hope you know somebody loves you

May all your dreams stay big

2006-08-30T17:04:00.000+08:00

I believe the English paper today was quite alright...
I hope I do much better than my mid years...yups...
I really do...Cause my future somewhat depends largely on it...right...
Ok..so its one down and 7 more to go...9 including practs...
Yups...hope I do well for all those other 7...
For that I need to study...Really Really hard...
So ya...
Presumely less blogging too...heh...
Thats about my day for today....hahas..

Bye!

Love bring's two persons nearer and nearer till their hearts intertwined,
Love brings us near but never close,
Love is very much like magnets--They attract and repel.
Love also brings out the softest side,a more "romantic" side of everyone.

-----

Right now girl,I know I'm still loving you.
After 21 days it hasn't wavered one bit.
Love so blind yet so powerful.
My Hopes = Stars in the sky...
They don't burn out...

2006-08-29T19:08:00.000+08:00

Ok gonna keep it short an simple...
Rights...today's chem pract was alright...yups...although I think I got several observations wrong...hmm....hope I score well for this pract...
Rights..then after school went to cut my hair...let me tell you that my hair now is damn short...hahas...really short la..hahas...but I like it...
quite coolin id you get wad I mean...
Yups...now I gotta rush for tuition....
oh well...
Till next time then...
Oh ya...Tmr's the english prelims...
Here's to all taking tmr's english prelims...GOOD LUCK!!
hahahas...

thats abt it...

bye!

My stars won't die...
These stars are special...
They come straight from my heart...

2006-08-28T17:17:00.000+08:00

Ooooooo...Tmr's the day...A day when the chemicals get mixed and students record what they see...hahas..
Yups...its the day of the chemistry practical..well...its only prelims this time...but hey...prelims are like actual Os right...so ya...
I'm sure all the Chemist out there from my school will be whipping out their textbook and their notes and revising their previous experiments...hahaas...
yups...cool rights...hahas...
I juz wanna wish all chem students tmr GOOD LUCK!!!
hahahas...
As for me...well..I guess its time to study now...hahahas...
Wish me luck!

If only time had stood still.

Now,I'm climbing the steepest hill.

Stars of the night,

Provides me direction and light.

Covered in dirt and grime,

Till death will I climb.

Reaching for the very top,

For you girl,I'll never stop.

Following the melody of your song,

I'm sure it can't be wrong.

I'll get to you,

Even if the grass were to turn blue.

For the chance to have you in my arms,

I'll be giving my all...

I'm not gonna give up just like that...

I will hold on...

I will wait...

As the night sky glitters with all of my hopes,

I know that I love you....

2006-08-27T17:13:00.000+08:00

Somebody please wake me up!
The prelims are like a week away and guess wad I have been doing...
Ok..I've been studying...ya..but not as much as I wanted to...
I dunno y la..I'm trying my best to use every ounce of my energy and strength to study...
But I'm often left dead tired after coming home from school...
I dunno y..is it because I lack sleep?
I sleep quite early though..10.30...is that considered late?
hmmmm..anyways...
Today was an ok day for me...
Went for mass...left early for tuition...then got back..wanted to have a haircut but the barber shop was closed...so ya..did not cut my hair...
so long though..damn irritating...hahahas..
ya..then good news too is that Manchester united maintained their winning streak..hahahas...
well done...
cool...
Juz finish my Gorby hmwk...now on to japan...erm...
Then again..maybe later...hahahas...
yea!

thats alll byes...

Stars represents my hope and dreams...
As long as there's stars,I'll continue hoping and dreaming...
Long live the stars in the sky!!!

2006-08-26T18:29:00.000+08:00

Something's wrong with me....
I'm like feeling so damn tired though I slept like for 3 hrs in the afternoon...
Rights..so cool right...
Oks..anyways...I had physics remedial today and Amaths...ya...
After that went to play soccer...
Then I went back home...
Had lunch...
Then slept...
Then here blogging...
What a pig...hahahas...
Hmmm...thats abt it for my day today I guess...
So boring...
No wonder.......

I'm wishing upon stars,praying and praying each night...
That maybe,just maybe someday...You'll be mine...
However helpless it may seem,I'm never gonna give up,
I love you still.

2006-08-25T20:14:00.000+08:00

Boy~I'm dead tired man...
Slept like at 11.30 like that...cant sleep la...dunno why...
Too much things on my mind maybe...yups...hahahas..
anyways...today I went to school as usual la..but was feeling the tiredness right from the start...so cool right...hahahas...
ya...then had to tahan till abt 7.30 till finally finishing my lessons,tuition included...
its like almost 12hrs of lessons la...can die sia...
but then since I'll be having my Os this year....I think it might all be worth it...hahahs...
hope so anyways...
rights I just noticed that I am like a girl...As in the way I talk..hahas....
hahahas..do I?
who cares...not me...hahahahahas...I anything also can one...except very impt ones...
heh....
rights..then had a mock prelim paper can I call it that...hahas..anyways...it was an Emaths paper...hmm..the paper was like 2.5 hrs long la...for me i found it rather too long for just paper 2...so ya...it was quite all right..except those that I have yet to study like the graphs and the transformation thingy...lucky thing is I have the feeling to study..and guess wad retain wad I learned...so cool rights...although its just a feeling...hahahas...
ya...hope I do well for the mock paper...Fingers crossed...hahahas....
ya..then rushed to tuition after the test...so dumb..hahahas..was like almost 15 mins late...so cool...
first time I late sia..hahas...thats abt it for me today...real hectic day for me...
hahahs...
ya...and I'm like listening to Here By Me by 3 Doors Down...
quite a nice song...yups...

Till next time Cyaz!

Pointless,Illusions,Dreaming...
Thats what I'm facing daily...
Although I know it's impossible,
I have no idea why I'm still waiting...
Is this how love's suppose to feel like???
Only heaven knows....

2006-08-24T15:43:00.000+08:00

Yes yes yes...so here I am again blog...almost 9 hrs since the first entry today...so this is the 2nd entry...hahahas..
well..today damn fun...
ok so we had the last chem experiment for the year as in in class...after that is prelims and the actual Os...so scary...anyway..our final chem experiment was damn funny...hahaas...alot of test tubes were broken...and some like broke into half while we were using the test tube brush to wash the dirt out...hahahs..so funny la...everyone laughed..hahas...it was that funny..abt 15 ppl broke their test tubes la..because we heated it over a flame ya...so ya...it became "soft"..hahaha...
but imagine everyone laughing along...it was damn cool la..then I dunno y la..but today's the experiment lesson all together very different atmosphere than the rest..hahas..alot of laughing..hahas..maybe its me..hahahs...laughed alot...hahahas...
ya...thats abt it...for today...hmmm..ya....
hahahas..
enjoy the the lost of chelsea ppl!!!
but dun worry lots mroe to come..hahahas....

I've given up trying to kid myself into thinking that I can stop loving you,
So ya...
I still do...
Is this a good thing or a bad thing I'm not sure...
But hey...I got Os to conquer first...

2006-08-24T06:24:00.000+08:00

Arlow~
Ok...since ytd I could not sign in to blogger...so today at 6.43 AM I shall blog abt my day ytd...
Rights...so ytd we did an experiment again...erm...physics...yea...
Doing physics experiment always brings me memories of that wonderful tuesday in july...If I'm not wrong the 4th of july...yea...4th..again...
Ya....If you can't rmb wad happend that day nvm...but its the sms thingy...hahahas...ya...I cant forget...
haiz...ya...
hmmm..wad else happened ytd?oh ya...
played bball like alot ytd..and guess wad..ytd my shooting was more accurate than usual...
so cool right...hahahas..
ya...thats abt it...hmmm...yups...

Cyaz...go school liao....

As hard as I try to tell mysef that it's not possible,
I can't seem to forget you,
In me there's still that little glimmer of hope that you might still like me in the future,
Believe me I tried to coax myself into not loving you...
But I just can't help it,
Looks like it's really here to stay...
I'm sorry...