Thursday, January 04, 2007
JC this JC that...Bla Bla Bla.
I can't take it anymore.
I freaking want to go to JC!!!
I want to go to school!
Hearing my friends say this and that about JC so far,I freaking want to go!!
After hearing them I feel like bloody crying la!
Why was I so stupid and playful in secondary school??!!!!
WHY WHY WHY!!!
I fucking regret what I chose to do!
I should have studied right from the start and not wake up with only 6 months left!
WHY WHY WHY!!!
ARGH!
Every night before I sleep,I'd be thinking how nice would it be if I were going to school now instead of being at home.Everynight,I'll be close to tears.For I can't be with my friends.There they are experiencing JC life while I?Spend lonely times at home!
My heart is torn into pieces knowing that I could have been in a JC right now yet I did not even give myself a chance!
I regretted my freaking actions!
Damn!
I want to turn back the freaking clock!
Can I do that?
I've learned my lesson the damn hard way.
The freaking hard way.
I regret ok!!I regret!!!
Someone throw me a life line please!
Haiz...
I bow my head in shame...in shame...in shame...
----------
To my friends,I hope you guys would be so kind as to lend me your notes that you'll receive from ur lessons in JC.
I don't want to lag too far behind when/if I make it to a JC.
Thanks.
----------
When you read what I'm going to say here,I hope you know that it is meant for you.
It's meant for you.
Do you know that everytime I talk to you there would be this feeling from deep within my gut?
An sms from you is able to make me smile the whole day.
I'm very happy that you are talking to me.
But I'm wondering,once you read this and my previous posts,would we still talk like now?
Do you know that I very much like you?
Did you know that when you went for your holiday trip,the days that I was unable to talk to you,the 2 days.Well they felt pretty empty.It was as though something was missing.
That missing piece was you.
Do you know that every time I wish you goodnight and sweet dreams I actually mean it?
Did you know that every time you'd have to go offline,I get this she bu de feeling?
Do you know that I just want to make you smile and feel happy?
I guess to all that questions,your answer would be that you don't know.
Well I'm telling you now...This is how I really feel.
I'm hoping that someday you'd feel the same way too.
*Hoping* *Fingers-crossed*
