Thursday, November 23, 2006
You know,I've been thinking...Yups...Thinking...
Ya...
I feel that I'm lacking in confidence and courage,guts whatever you call it...
Everything I do I'm afraid to get it wrong.I'm afraid of making mistakes.
I feel I'm never as good as anybody...To me I'm basically the worst guy in the world...
I look at some of my friends and would sometimes wish that I could be like them...Full of poise and confidence...
I don't seem to get anything right...None at all...
I'm even afraid to ask for something I want...Often thinking twice,trice...And finally never even say my piece...
I just have no courage in opening my mouth and ask...
Even when I'm playing soccer...I'm afraid to get past the person in front of me for fear of losing the ball...
I lack the guts...
If I get a chance to shoot...I would probably elect to pass to my teammates rather than have a go myself...
I may be noisy and irritating the shit out of my friends with my nonsense when we go out together or something...But in truth I'm scared to even hold a decent convo with my teachers!!
I'm such a loser rights??
hahas...
Well thats me I guess...
hahas...enuff self-pity...
On to other better stuff...
Well my brother got back his PSLE results today and I'm proud to say that he beat me!!!Thrash me!
He had 231 while I had 222...hahas...Big difference I know...hahas..
I feel so happy for him...Really happy...He had worked hard for it..trust me...He deserves it...
To those who might think that I'm sore at losing out to him...well...you've got it all wrong...Cause I'm very close to my family if anyone in the family does well I feel happy...
I dun care if they beat me or freaking thrash me or even if they outsmarted me...I'm happy for them...
Kudos to my bro...
I'm sure he'll go on and even beat my O level score whatever my score shall be...
I'm sure he'll better it...hahas!
I have confidence in him...ha!
He's my brother and I'm proud to be his!!!
Thats all for today ppl!ha!
Don't forget to remember me,
When the storm blows your way,
I wanna be the earth that holds you...
Taken from Carrie Underwood's "Don't forget to remember me and Inside you heaven"
